Self Portrait #32

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“Build something big, something bigger than anything you’ve done. When what’s in front of you is so bright and so satisfying, you won’t have time to look behind you. Your eyes and mind will be focused straight ahead. That will draw you out. A big enough, bright enough, sexy enough future. A future so soaked with potential and possibility its weight will snap you free from that significant and laborious past.” -Gary John Bishop

I just read this book today, Unfu*k Yourself. The main point that I took from it, is that what you do is all that matters. You can think and feel as positive or negative as you want, it doesn’t matter. All that matters is what you do. If you want to succeed then stop playing victim, get your ass up and do what you need to do. I have struggled with this. I am about to step into a very scary part of my journey, and part of me wants to close my eyes and retreat. But then I realize, nobody is going to save me but myself. I need to find that girl that never used to take no for an answer, that when hit with an obstacle, found another route. To live my life like I’m dying, because I am. I’ve already decided what my next goals are, and some are pretty big. I don’t have time to look back now. I don’t have time to sit on my butt. I stopped watching TV a year ago because it was a waste of the time I could be using the further myself. To get my goals accomplished. I won’t be on of those that sits and complains, yet changes nothing. I wanted to get healthy, so I wake up early every single morning and exercise. Ya I still eat chocolate, but I eat the healthiest I’ve ever eaten. I knew my marriage was over, so I took the steps to start new. I’m tired of making excuses as to why I might fail. Cause I will, plenty. But that sure the hell isn’t going to stop me. If you want your life to be different, it simply comes down to making a plan and acting on it. Not saying ‘one day’. Today is your day. Or, I guess you could just watch others succeeding at the same things you could also have, but choose not to. Your choice. I know what mine is.

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