Life has felt pretty out of sorts lately. I am an introvert by nature, so staying home has not had too much affect on me, but the social media, and constant arguing amongst groups has taken its toll. I have stopped reading peoples posts, I have stopped engaging in the back and forth arguments, and I am keeping news to the minimum. I am trying to focus day to day, on the important things. My kids, my partner, my livelihood and my mental health. I know what I believe is happening in the world right now, and I sure don’t have to argue it with anyone.
As much as I’ve been going through this “new” way of life, so have my children. They are affected by missing their friends, missing their school routine, missing a regular childhood right now. I find I have to over compensate for my children, as there are things that are lacking when they are not with me. Therefore, when they come back home, my time and attention is put on them, and my work and life comes second. My youngest is attached to me like glue now, my oldest is constantly wanting hugs and snuggles, and my girls are very emotional. It is a lot to deal with. My kids hold their stress in their bodies just like I do, and weekly chiropractor appointments are needed to help them with this, as well as nightly massages given by me.
I am trying, but sometimes I feel like there is more that can be done. So I am always looking at ways to create memories with them. Things that they will bring fondly into their adult lives, remember with smiles, and maybe recreate with their own family.
Paddleboarding is one of those things. I’ve had one for a few years, but decided to purchase another so that it could be a joint adventure. The boys have not showed a lot of interest, but the girls love it. Listening to their giggles and laughs the entire time has been worth every penny. They fall into the water plenty, they scream thinking fish and sharks will bite them, and they laugh, a lot. We race, we float and talk, they try yoga moves to see if they can balance. It is wonderful.
Sometimes I get worried that I am not able to afford all of the material things for them, but then I realize that I give them the best thing I can. My time, my attention and my love. I build memories and traditions with them that will surpass anything that could be bought or built. I am there for them when they need me, I am their constant, their safe place as they like to tell me. I know them inside and out, I am their soft place to land, always. They were always my priority when they were young, everything came second to them. So we have a relationship that not everyone is able to have, and for that I am grateful.
Sometimes we have to remind ourselves, in this age where technology is everywhere, we think we need to have the biggest and best house or vehicle, and time seems to always be occupied, that our children just want our love and attention. It costs nothing, but is the best investment you could over make. Your kids just want you, nothing else. So remember that, especially right now when many of you have been awarded some extra time to spend with them while the world sorts itself out.